Coffee

I should go to bed. It's almost 10 and I've been up since 7:20 this morning. Doesn't sound so bad does it? Well, when you go to bed at midnight and get waken-up by a baby at 12:45 that thinks it's time to play until the weeeee hours of the morning...like 4ish, you can understand why I should go to bed.

I even tried to take a nap this morning. But, since having 4 children and a dog (i include the dog just cause having a dog makes everything harder:)j.k:) kind of:) wink. wink (don't know if I'm kidding or not, now do you?) Don't you love parenthesis? Can you tell I'm an English major? ok. you can tell i'm NOT. Far from it too. I'm not that clever or well spoken or (pause) something. What was I saying at the beginning of this paragraph? I don't remember. And I don't want to look back...yet. I like just rambling as if we are just sitting shooting the breeze like we're best friends. Don't you? hmmmm. i do. So. Napping. That's right. It's hard for me to fall asleep. To quiet the mind. Maybe it's the caffeine. My saving grace. At least I don't drink red bull or rock sugar. I instead just eat sugar, and lots of it. Can you tell? Does my butt look bigger? Oh, you can't cause you can't see me. Remember, I'm tired and I should go to bed.

Jon is working. His partner boss told him to hug the wife and hug the kids and tell em' you'll see em' in the mornin. We laughed. Remember that u tube video over the summer? antoine. kiss your kids, ... hilarious and one of the best u tube videos of all time.

Sidetracked again. Must be the caffeine. I cut myself off at 7 every night. I switch to the hard stuff...Caffeine FREE diet coke. You know cause I care. Don't want to do anything stupid late at night. So yes. Jon is working. He switched law firms since living in this paradise. Did you know that? Probably not. We keep things on the low down here. Not on purpose just cause. No reason. Do you like how I say "cause" a lot? It's sounds stupid. hehe. And I like to mock. Don't know who I'm mocking. Maybe a bird. Get it? Mockingbird...to kill a mockingbird. yeah, did i mention i should go to bed.

now this is just fun. the rambling. do you like the picture of the sign? that sign was on a snack shop right outside the doctor's office. I love this sign. I don't drink coffee. Good thing too. I would be crazy. and apparently doing really stupid stuff. it's a funny sign.

i started working out this week. yeah, i've made this claim half a dozen times since having Grace. She's almost 1 now. I still look 4 in a half months prego. and my butt is big. it could be the cookies. it could be the fries. yeah, i did eat healthy for like 2 weeks. Lost 9 pounds and haven't gained it back. good thing too. the thing is i still have about 20 to lose. i know. some would look at me and ask where this 20 is on my body. Let me tell you. . . it's scattered. really it is. so my question is why do i lose inches and not weight? seriously, i go to the gym early (6 a.m. (applause please)) and i look smaller, jeans are looser, yet the scale is the same. don't tell me muscle weighs more than fat. i could care less. how do i lose the actual pounds and not only the inches? or will it eventually come off? or do i actually have to cut out the yummy foods? i know you're gonna say it and i don't know if i can handle the truth. it's the yummy foods. isn't it? and haaaaa i don't want too say goodbye to it. didn't you hear that breaking up is hard to do!?! it's my sanity. my love. my go too. you know the box of cookies that i just looovvvvve. maybe i should just get a boob job, and then nobody will notice my butt. (did i just say boobs?) yikes. did i tell you that i need to go to bed.

yep. i did. i did say that didn't i. bummer.

goodnight nobody. goodnight bright screen. goodnight moon. (love that book)

love you.

smile.