Life as I live it...

It has been a long time since I have written a post. Every time I sit down at the computer I get sidetracked. Either with reading other people's blogs, or reading the news, or budgeting our money (or the lack thereof.) And then there is that blasted FB website where I get on and get updated on those people's lives whom I find interesting or entertaining or something. My life I find to be like groundhog's day. I think I'm in a rut or slump or something but feel that maybe today I am getting out of it. Church was inspiring today, and hopefully I can carry that energy with me through the week. It was ward conference today. So enlightening and refreshing to hear our Stake President's words and his counselors.

One thing that was spoken about was based on Elder Beck's talk, which I believe was given in Priesthood session. He talked about the fact that we are (as members of the church) to stand out amongst others. Whether we know we stand out or not, we do. Personally, this is something that I find hard to do, or at least I don't enjoy it. I kind of like being isolated. I like being part of the background and hiding in my cave. Some of you might not believe me when I say this, but it is true most of the time. It is rare when I desire or want people to notice me. I think this might stem from insecurities on my part or even laziness. It's less work to hide and blend in, which I confess is something I desire more often than I should. "Comfort Zone" I guess is the right term for this.

I was also surprised to hear the warning to our ward, which they made the point to tell us is a problem in every ward in the stake, that there is an epidemic of people befriending their Ex's causing marriages and families to be destroyed. Through email, facebook and blogs people are deciding to contact their old flames and rekindle the flame so to speak. I guess I am a little naive because I didn't think that people look up ex's to restart things, but to honestly just fulfill the curiosity of where that person is and who they married, kids, etc. Not actually to restart a relationship. Obviously, I am a little naive. OK, a lot naive. It is sad that this is a problem.

Changing the subject since that was not a fun subject. :) There is NOT a lot of family news. The boys are boys. Funny, always moving, fighting, talking, and playing. Lucas is turning 7 soon. David is 2 and stubborn. But incredibly funny and his smile is contagious. Micah brings up Jesus all the time. He talks of Jesus like they are the best of friends, which I know they are. It is cute.

Jon and I are doing well. It seems like we are getting restless. Restless to know where and when we should settle down and raise our kids. The questions of what Jon wants in his career and where he can accomplish those goals. The questions of where we can afford a home and what areas to research. Where is our Mecca? When we start asking so many questions we just get tired and antsy. The answer we always get is that we've got time and to be patient. I know we were to come here to L.A. to this law firm to this ward. There are apparent and not so apparent reasons as to why we are here. I think deep down I just want it to be over and move on to the next chapter of our lives where church, politics, cost of living and so on is not so disheartening at times. (I know I include church in this list which might be surprising to some, but if you only knew what I'm talking about then you'd be not surprised). So I guess the famous question is "Where do we want our children to be raised?" Maybe some of you have an answer. :) Do you love your city, and do you recommend living there?

We still haven't taken Easter pictures. It is so hard to get the boys dressed up and without a black eye or scratches or scabs on their faces from falls or other craziness they somehow get involved in. I thought for sure today would be the day right before church but then David through the biggest tantrum b/c he didn't want to wear church clothes. He is stubborn when it comes to clothes. Maybe next week.

Well, tomorrow is another day and hopefully I can get organized and get some chores done. Good luck with your week too.