Excuses...

I am a person with an excuse for anything and everything. I'm always thinking about what could happen instead of living in the moment and just doing. I have a hard time with just doing. Here are some of my excuses that I have that justify my actions. I have many more but I rather not share all of my secrets;)

• I can't do the dishes. David will climb in the dishwasher and grab a knife.

• I can't get up that early. I was awake all night with David or maybe awake all night just thinking about the trivial things that don't matter. If I wake-up too early then I'll be cranky the rest of the day. Naps are rare for me these days.

• I can't start the laundry now because I'm leaving soon and the clothes will sit too long in the washer and begin to smell.

• I can't transfer David into the boy's room because he might wake them up in the middle of the night. Or they will wake him up too early in the morning since they wake at the crack of dawn.

• I can't go for a run because there is not enough time. I just ate. I'm too tired. blah blah...

I think you understand what I'm saying. I find an excuse for everything just so I don't have to deal with the aftermath. Obviously, I live in fear of the unknown. Or at least the unknown of trivial things. I'm working on this problem I have. It helps when I tell myself to just do it. Just do what I have to and not think too much about the aftermath. Also, it helps when I admit to myself that I'm just being lazy and the excuses are just embarrassing instead of helpful.

So what if the clothes smell. Guess I'll have to run the washer again. So what if there is no time to run the 5 miles. There is enough time to run 2. So what if the dishes takes me extra time because I keep having to pull David out of the dishwasher. So What!

So do you have excuses too? I understand completely.